what could possibly happen next?

2005-04-15

I'm alive

So it's just a matter of typing. Even if I don't have the words, right? Even though I don't know what to say. How much to admit to. I don't even know who's right or wrong. I'm pretty sure that I'm not right. Summary then. Alabama's done for now. I'm stuggling to keep my sanity. My job is spintering apart. I haven't done any shit in 4 days. Alcohol doesn't count. I have a "something" in my chest that scares the hell out of me. I love this little girl that is strolled past me every morning when I'm having a cigarette. She's African and has the most beautiful eyes. She never fails to smile at me and look at me with those big beautiful eyes. She is maybe the only thing that reminds me that I'm human. God sends us his angels in many different forms.

Semi-Charmed Life
by Third Eye Blind

Lyrics:

I'm packed and I'm holding
I'm smiling, she's living
She's golden and she lives for me
She says she lives for me
Ovation, She's got her own motivation
she comes 'round and she goes down on me

And I make her smile
It's like a drug for you
Do ever what you want to do coming over you
Keep on smiling, what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you

And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
And I come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play, she said

I want something else to get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life, baby baby
I want something else
I'm not listening when you say good-bye

The sky it was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there some place back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal myth will lift you up until you break

It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock
With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop
And then I bumped up
I took the hit that I was given
Then I bumped again, And then I bumped again

I said how do I get back there to
The place where I fell asleep inside you
How do I get myself back to
The place where you said

I want something else to get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life, baby baby
I want something else
I'm not listening when you say good-bye

I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling
An earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows

And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right

When the plane came in, she said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city we tripped
On the urge to feel alive
But now I'm struggling to survive
Those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You're the priestess I must confess
Those little red panties, they pass the test
Slides up around the belly, face down on the mattress
One

Now you hold me and we were broken
Still it's all that I want to do, just a little now
Feel myself with a head made of the ground
I'm scared but I'm not coming down, no no
And I won't run for my life
She's got her jaws just locked now in smile but nothing is all right
All right

I want something else to get me through this life, baby
I want something else
I'm not listening when you say good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye

Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do
Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do
Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do

The sky was gold
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there some place back there
In the place you used to stay

Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do
Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do
Do-do-do, Do Do-do-do (I want something else)