what could possibly happen next?

2004-08-21

ho-hum

I'm bored out of my mind. It's hot. It's one of those "just for today, I will not pick up no matter what..." kind of days. I am way worse off when I am bored than even when I am angry or upset. I mean as far as using goes. I am such a freak. Could you imagine when you were young ever thinking that you would struggle with things and have to as consciously think about them as I do now. What are my motivations? Am I looking for an excuse to use? Why can't I think about something else? blech. Alright, I'm gonna go. CRAZY!!!