what could possibly happen next?

2005-01-13

weekend plans

Oh my goodness! I almost forgot to update. I really do try to update at least once a day because I know that I start fiending for you guys after a couple of days. Not that you fiend for me but...you know what I mean. Not a lot happening. Working like a freak. Once again, drug free through the week. I hate it. I think I had a 40 on monday and that was the extent of it. Of course, being violently ill is a drug in and of itself. I really wish that I had drugs during the week and not on the weekends. It would make my life a lot easier. Like I have said before, it's like I'm always coming down during the week. No bueno. Enough of that bullshit. This weekend? Well, glad ya asked. Let's see how this plays out. Because I have become a notorious gambler at the local indian casino, they are now giving me free rooms. On the weekends. Yo! High roller, huh? Did I mention free, really nice, clean rooms? Not even a year old yet. I get one every week and a half for the next month and a half. Nice, no? Plus they give me money to gamble with too. They love my money! Alabama is supposed to go with me. Well, we know what happened last time so I'm not counting my chickens before they hatch. Daddy's got back up plan. If Alabama blows me off (I find it hard to believe she would, she's been really good the last month) I have the Lakeside girl option. She's a girl that I have been chatting to online the last couple of weeks. Nothing really hot and heavy (i.e. hardcore) but more heavy flirting (softcore.) No alabama, welcome lakeside. I mean we've talked about hooking up. She's in her mid 40's but looks early 30's. Has that kind of goth betty page look and just the smoking body. She's tall,(almost 6 feet), has just these enormous breasts, ok well proportioned to her body in a barbie kinda way? Or maybe wonderwoman, or maybe betty page? lol. Very sexy and sweet. I'll have to send groovebunny a picture to approve her. LOL. I always do, it's our thing. HAHA. Even with East Coast girls, LOL. She definitely thought my secret east coast friend was a hottie! So do I and I miss talking to you! So we will see how all that pans out. The truth (bottom line?) of this whole thing is, why am I behaving like this? I'm always talking about how Alabama is fucking me over with her ex-husband, but look at me. Setting up backup plans just in case she fucks up? I'm not right. I really hope Alabama shows. That is what I truly want in my heart of hearts. If she doesn't, I will fuck Betty Page like she ain't never been fucked before. LOL. I'm so sure of myself. Maybe I'll be the lamest dude she's ever had. It would be my luck. Probably what I deserve too. (making the sign of the cross) "God, I'm sorry that I have the morals of an allycat. Please watch over me lest I contact STD's, or my sperm beith too strong for my owneth good. AMEN."